There's too much i dunno,
But it will kill me if i knew.
There's too much for me to learn,
but what i want, my mind will burn.

why is it me?
why cant i be who i want to be?
I dont need to be free,
i just want to be me.

i never meant to be like this,
i wanna live my way.
yet all the time all i get
is hurt when you look away.

this was supposed to be up ytd, but i was emo-ing-.-

dumbass.

anw, sch passed quickly cos sean nvr come, no guitar and i was quiet mostly. so, nt much to write. -.-"""


lol.

today was istar's bday.

some pl wasted 37+++ bucks, to throw at ppl.-.-

really, for wad.

during th short celebration, we played guitar like hell. lol.

that was the most fun part, other than thrashing the class.


after the whole thing, played soccer in one big group. play intil gt heatstroke o.o

i went delirious cos of that, laughing on the floor like some dunno wad-.-
must bear in mind, to watch my body temp when i play again.

went home with leg cramps. no pain no gain, lol.

-th user has too much work to do. he will be away for a while to clear his debts. sorry-.- -

i finally decided, i'm not going to th class chalet.

don't hold it against me, guys, but i guess i just don't want.

not that i dont like it or what.

wow.

i realised that i'm still too arfraid to ask my parents if i can attend th class chalet.
hell, what a noob.

lol. spent the day dota-ing as the construction workers repaired my house bathrooms. also managed to help some ppl navigate, thoughi dunno if i was really helping or not :/

if i total th number of hrs i used com ,this might be th longest i ever used it before. cool.

i'm nt rly sure what i want to write here, cos what i want to put up isnt ready yet. lol.

so for now, it ends here.

you know, sometimes once you've broken something you'll look back and say "oh my god, what have i done...".

i think i just did that. but i'm not saying what i did.

omg, what did i just do.
i cant apologise, i cant do anyth right.
damn it man, i shouldnt have said that.
i was wrong, even if you were wrong at first.
i'm not swearing ever again.

anyway, i'm not sure if things are gna be back to normal, but for my purposes i'm gna put up my timetable and to do list here.

1)prioirity: malay ec dates.
28,31(oct) 4 nov
2)cca training: test + day2day schedules
3)class chalet-explanation to parents -.-

not so bad. but still gt more stuff to put up, such as other subjects ec (yes, anyone who sees, still have) -.-

i'm gna read manga now. so my remaining temper can flow away.
this is rly such a drag....

its a lame day
my jokes all feel cold,
its a new life,
so why am i so old
my feet still hurt
from walking all the way.
(the anthem, good charlotte, first verse)

through qualitative analysis, every one sided relationship has 4 parts.

Part 1.
the admirer analyses the admired. s/he finds out more about the person, before subconcious advance to part 2.

part 2. the idiot part
slowly admirer begins to think more and more about the admired, until
1)s/ he goes crazy
2)s/he begins to get real and quit

part 3. the incessant worrying
the admirer begins to get deadly jealous of anyone who comes near his/her admired.
OR
the admirer begins to worry of his/her admired safety 24/7, or worse 3600/24.(every second of th day)

part 4. the grand finale.
s/he is accepted and is so happy, but then the relationship breaks very fast.(sean's first relationship. hope you dun mind, sean)
OR
s/he is rejected so badly, his/her ears and nose touch the floor at the sametime.
in other words, s/he emo like HELL.

the end.
By Ba, the psychologist.

ya, so for all you ppl in 1 sided relationships, try to avoid the last3 points. its damn dangerous. more dangerous than me.

in other news, some ppl are damn sad, but i dun dare to go to them to ask why. ._. stupid paranoia. i'll ask when i'm 1000 times braver.

i just released some of my stress. it feels great. :)

but alrd i can feel all the sadness coming back, so, i must type faster.

i'll say this- i wont regret what i'm gonna do.

we went recess late today.

nothing interesting rly happened.

at least today more people were smiling. yesterday was very sad.
i cant believe i emo-d yesterday, and forget what happened during that time.

nvm. it wont change anything.

i feel very tired, sick and tired that i myself cannot cry.
i just dunno wad to say or think right now. i'm not emo, i'm just wondering whats next.

cyber ppl read the post before this, impt.

we got back papers today.

i did quite well ( : but thats not my concern.

a certain person was retained, and his friends are very concerned. i dun wan her to be sad. oi you. if you can see, this, you better nt retain ok. i'll do next to whatever it takes. i dun wan to see sad ppl next year.

other than that, salutations and praises to mr kamal. we finally managed to pass ss and history!!!
Backtrack:

SS AND HIST
CA1: F9
SA1:F9
CA2:F9


SA2: 62, B4(ss) 65, B3(HIST)

OWNAGE!!! lol. thats amazing!!!
and add together you get after-.-

i think many ppl worked harder this time. gd for them, they needed it.

i wasn't there for you, how to face myself? you cried and i couldnt help you.
this sucks.

looks like i didnt get my salary. nt yet, at least. nvr mind. you did well enough, good effort. next year i'll see a 6 as your l1r5.

moving on.(your head ah)
cyber sucked today. bloody misinterpretation of orders.
wth lah, i need more of myself. i need naruto's kagebunshin technique(replication).
anyway malay lesson was slow. i'm only interested in the tests mdm asnah gives, but the compo practice might give me a life saving boost. who knows?

and still, 3 days frm now got spa test. at least i nt like some ppl, scared spa like want to die liddat. -.- still want worry dunno what shit all. more impt stuff in front of your eyes ok. dun see here see there then forget.

as a last point, instructions for next cyber. you MUST follow. no matter what happens.

PRIMARY OBJECTIVES
1)packset. you ********* nvr do as i ask we waste one day. think the sun come out from sky is it. no. the sun in space.

-notes for packset
1)use th 7 ppl plan of doom, yl,tiki and lovel will know.
2) by 330 still not moving, call nathan to get them to move.
3)by 4 not done, start fining. power is in exco candidates and exco's hands.

2)njrc group reassignment
this simply means return to njrc groups, then start to build the njrc robot. at least must have built alrd. i dun give a damn what you want say ok, must be done by end of th day.

SECONDARY OBJECTIVES
1)clean lab
2)organize the sets, so nvr mix up.
3) go home before 6-.- i want ok.

if i see the secondary objectives done first, then you gna get heavy fines and 1 warning. the primary objectives HAVE to be completed. HAVE to. or you dun understand? scroll down.



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UNDERSTAND?

the (lame) end.

return of the lame

Hello!!! i'm the lame owner of this blog-.-

i dno why, but i gt an urge to restart blogging-.- its like an itch.
my resolve this time, is to get rid of emo-ness and put up only what i like.
and if anybody is reading, i'll put up posts irregularly, cos i dun use com every day.

anyway, its the end of sec3 and results come out tmr-.- i'm hoping certain ppl will pass and move on.
(move on?)
i'm waiting for my salary, if you can see this. you better pay me ok.

if you guys see any emo ppl on monday, please, please, console them, and do not aggravate anybody. i will come after ppl who nothing better to do disturb others.

and to move on, this is wad the cyber students need to do.

--------BEWARE, LONG GRANDFATHER STORY----------

arvind- lead the students in packing set. make sure all the sets are properly packed, because they really need the sets for their tests.

ryofred-round up the groups one by one to sieve out the slackers and good workers. mr nathan would like to meet the slackers. dun forget the cyberfund. siannn.

kavin^10,sean, vincent and joel-come up with a training schedule based on the knowledge capabilities. follow these guidelines-
1) must have 4 parts, i.e. 2 building, 2 program. 1 advanced, 1 noob.
2)must have enough trainers.
3)class must not be overloaded.
4)must have lectures and,
5)must have practical sessions.

lastly, you all also need to be able to fork out the eligible lvl1 and lvl 2 for exco and lvl up tests. like i said before, we have to do 2 tests, 1 lvl up, 1 normal.

exco candidates(omar, yl, tiki and lovel)-start withdrawing key frm monday onwards. must be early for cca, must have cc(crowd control) and lastly announcement making belongs to poven and lovel. arvind, ask them to do it. The exco and candidates MUST NOT mingle with the ppl, MUST NOT slack in one corner except for those i have given the discussion jobs. discipline is under ryofred, but the exco and candidates are able to use any of the rules, but with arvinds permission. i trust his judgement is right.

and finally, the rest of cyber- do what the exco says, or subject to fines.

an additional point to note-
2 new cyber rules
1)cannot disturb any other cybernetician, regardless of rrl(race, lang., or religion), whether or not they disturb you.
2)cannot be a disturbance, rrl.

if both occur at the same time, then both parties WILL receive fines and warning.