its like a blunt knife being driven into me.
its as if i get hit on the face again and again.
every time i see it it just kinda hurts, but i won't say a word.
because others suffer worse.

went to sch for cca again, did the aprc robot.
it still needs a bit more work.
other than that, the cca's fine. so dun worry, mr nathan/sean.

...i looked at it again, and i still feel hurt.
hurt that i cant do the same for you.
i'm not good enough for you, thats a fact.
but i'm not going to leave your side as long as you want to keep me.
because, not only are you my -------, you saved me.
although it was kinda crude.

i'm so happysad.
this sucks but its good for you.
it hurts, dammit.
this is really, really confusing me.
i'm sorry.