when a person has done something wrong, he has to apologise.
is it too late?
but what if the person he wronged hates being apologised to?
then what should he do?
its not your fault, but mine i think.
i need to go out for a bit and think,(but you know how my parents are).
but if i go out i'll get lost-.-
maybe, i just move too fast but too slow for everyone.
i don't really know.
that's why i go to school to learn.
when you need other people's view on a subject, no matter how harsh, stupid, weird, strange or boring it is, you must learn to accept it. and i'm learning to do that.

i'm not cutting ties with you, i was never angry.
i'm just not sure what i have to do.
can you help me?
so now, i'm taking a back lane so i can just sit back and think.
i still want to help you, i don't want to see you sad or angry.
i'm not you, i can't understand what you go through, and maybe i never will.

so, i hope you forgive me.
i am, but a human. no matter how strong, how smart, how old or how young, i can't be you, and i can't be exactly who you want me to be.
i think i need to find that out by myself.
take this as my apology if you want, although you hate it.
if not, tell me what you want me to do.
i can't afford to nose around in other people's business,
i'm not stable enough to do that.
i'm not strong enough to take the truth if you don't tell me, because i don't know how i should react.
you did help me when i was emo.
i'm leaving that behind, so i can sort out who and what i really want to be.
so, thanks for your help.
you hate this too, but that's me. too bad, cel.
if you ever see this, tell me you have.

i'm waiting for your reply.

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and back to the real me.

i wonder if i should complain.
i got a lot of work to do, although i wouldn't have it any other way.
i want to be a better person, so no choice.
i just hope i don't screw up in cyber anymore.
i've made many mistakes, so now i must repair them-.-""""

i'll be back before anybody knows it.