hey, i wonder how you are.
i kinda miss being able to talk to my friends, especially those precious to me.
i know, you probably wont see this, i know, there's so many things you're doing out there.
you're a great person. but flattering you isn't my kinda thing to do.
at this moment, i dont like anyone.
i've matured much faster now that i've gone through 4 sharp rejections in a row.
but i'll get used to it.
i need to find out, who is it that i want, and not to be together just for fun.

i want to see the world.
i want to be able to move freely, without any bonds holding me back,
but i realise that the only time i can do that is long gone.
next year, is the make or break year.
i have to chase the dream that i set up myself.
the dream, where nobody runs beside me, and i'm alone.
what is a group of friends but people who stand beside you for a mere moment?
i can't do much to them, or for them.
so i need to be strong on my own, so i can actually do stuff.
so i'm not helpless.
so i'm not useless.
so i won't see tears in 2010 on my friend's faces , or on my own.

i really want to see you.
i wish you were the one.
but i have to face it that its not you.
i knew it right from the start, when i saw you.

so then, how are you guys?

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one day, i'll write a story about the management.
to show each person's real personality at that time.
or at least the personality the showed me.
wait for it after next year.