i don't like it.

of all people why must it be, why is it that i must think of you.
nvr see you is not enough to forget you.

why is it so difficult to forget all the bonds that we once shared?
do you ever remember how good friends we were?

then you still just leave me like that.
why did you do that?

am i so bad that i don't deserve you even as a friend?
is it?

i didn't become you're friend because i loved you.
you were a good friend.
i never betrayed you,
didn't lie to you,
didn't blackmail you,
didn't want to hate you.
i never intentionally did anything bad to you at all.

if three words can change the world, you just changed me into the most dangeous person i'll ever see.

i didnt see you,
i didn't hear you,
i tried not to think of you.
but the memories are uneraseable.

are you happy with what you did?
tell me. are you happy?

so much anger,
so much sadness.
i shouldn't have underestimated my temper.
i shouldn't have overestimated you.

waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting, waitingwaitingwaitingwaitingwaitingwaiting
you should just say no.
and watch me as i heal.

that helps.
you cant even help the person you sat beside for two years.
what kind of idiot are you?
stay in 4/1 with all your smart ass friends(sorry, my smart ass friends. no offence to you guys)
stay there on your high seat as the best wushu performer for anderson.
stay there as i, a broken hearted, short-tempered, violent, inconsistent, lame, cheapskate, lousy, half useless, emo, dark, and low stamina-d fool watches you.

and trains.
and trains.
and trains.
and trains.

one day, i'll look down at you and say,
"am i the one who you called a hypocrite?"
"do i know you?"
"see? all A1. just like i said."

then you'll see who i really am.
and then, you'll know, that what you did was worse than wrong.
goodbye, my good friend.
i
never
want
to
see
you
again.

so long, miss shirley.

oi you bloody spammers.

我可以看你们
不要SPAM!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway i'll be gone like i said for very long.

and when i'm back i'll be 10 times smarter and maturer, but less lame.

wait for me-.-
i'll be back.

because tmr will be better than today.

this post is for a good friend of mine.


ok, lets see what i can get with my biased mind. hmm. sunday dec 28 you are really concerned about money ever since you started working, thats new. and also you're concerned about appearances, or is it a mask to hide your emotions? there's not enough info to confirm either theory.but you are concerned about school life, because you wanna know who is the next tchr for our class. but i guess that would be normal for students.and i dun understand the paper part, so i'm not sure is for who.

tuesday dec30
ah. mind like a whirlpool. that shows that there are quite a few things you're worried about, but i'm not sure what they are.and you're temper is getting a bit short. but you're actually more confident now, some event happened that made you much more confident than last yr.

1jan
so you are study oriented, you now have an academic goal. like you said, you dun wna go to ite, and yr first 3 resolution alrd is about studying. you 4th one is about money. i think its a sign of materialism, or maybe you just need it? i dunno. lose weight and be thinner, an appearance related resolution. no need lah, actually you want become paper isit-.- grow taller? thats not something you can get, but it shows dissatisfaction w yrself. but seriously, who's satisfied w themselves. you also show emotional maturity by treasuring ppl and things better. and not sent for dc is just something simple you wanna achieve. i think its some lasat resolution you bother to put, but it shows that you do wana follow rules. i;m not sure what it means though.but the i hate school seems to conflict w your resolution. maybe is you want education but you hate the education system. i think its that way.

2jan
yeah, the talk sucks. lucky we all go prayer.-.-and, nothing that i can analyse well. just that you miss somebody(O.O???) and that you're kinda still in holiday mode.thats all.

this blog analysis was doen by icicle[ex]guardian.
analysing since you first asked me to.

fuck this.

i am (the apostrophe on my keyboard spoil) damn pissed.

there is so much tension inside me i can go rampaging.

i do not know why, but i want to break everything.

it is just that i am not.