what is love?
is it just a blind feeling?
is it a feeling of wanting to be together forever?
if it is to me, i'm a blind man.
blinded by his greed.

ms guarded is so nice to me, i cannot breach her trust.
wo bu neng ai ni.
don't worry,
wo bu hui shuo pian ren de hua.
i won't love you.

at the same time i can feel the tearing feeling inside me when i know i've been rejected.
i want attention, i'm ashamed to say that.
that people will come to me and say
"eh ba, you did well."
"wah pro, not bad"
"you helped me, thanks! (:"
"you've been a good friend."
"you're too nice."

instead of

"i don't trust you."
"what the fuck are you doing?"
"do you think that i'm stupid?"

its a simple wish thats difficult to fulfill,
who am i to tell ppl wad to do if i cant do stuff myself.
watashiwa baka.
wo shi ben dan.

i'm falling back into that time period.
its so dark.

some body save me...............
i just dont wanna fall and die.
i hear your voice beside me, so
save me...
i'm standing still
on the edge of this precipice
save me,
pull me back before its too late,
save me,
do i mean enough to you guys
to be worth your time?(save me)
am i lame so much so,
you cant see me like your blind(save me)
am i just a useless person
that you guys dunwanna see(save me)
save me,
from myself.




good bye(sayonara)(zai jian)(selamat tinggal)(good bye in tamil)(good bye in arabic)

when i wake up i'll be either fine or dead.

or neither.