i'm getting violent mood swings again.
i'm afraid do to anything.
afraid i'll unlock and then...
end up regretting later.

wait until i'm better.
i rly feel very lost.

where's that helping hand to pull you up when you need it.

just got my sa results.

i have to say i'm not entirely thrilled,
but its a sign.

a start of my mugging sessions are needed.

i will need that ton of long overdue practice.

however my good friends will be able to continue to contact me, i'm always open for help.

its time to pump my studies to th max.

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i just discovered i like bball more than soccer.

i'm slowly getting rid of my emo spells on saturday.

maybe things are working out.

i don't have to fall in love.




staying as friends with you is just fine, my friend.
:) si wang ni hui xi huan.

no two days are ever the same.

no matter how sick you feel today, tomorrow ill either be better or worse.

we hold in our hands the choice to change or to stay on.

please, please, please let tomorrow be better than today.
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i wish/pray/hope

that this/that/those

day/time/part

when/where

we first met/we first talked/ we first fought/you first fell

would last in my memory/would stay in my hearing/would never happen again.

to the 3 people who matter the most to me.

one of you might see it, the other might not, and the last will not.

i really do treasure you ,the first and the third.
ms second, give me a chance...

shake hands.

i'm fucking pissed and stressed as well.

i'm going to be pushed away again by another.
its my fault, but then, what isnt?

you usually get back what you deserve, right?
no matter how much i try, the people who talk to me arent the ppl who i rly wna talk to.
person, i mean.
not that i'm ungrateful.
in that light, thanks to my family, celine, gwen, angie, sean, chua, how, hilmie, syazwan, etc.
i'm sorry everyone who was hurt by my words.
really.
i dont want to be grudged,
i hate people hating me.

but what i hate more is if you hate me and dont say a word to me, letting me do
more and more stupid, wrong stuff.
or stuff that people dont like.


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i just...
i just wanna get to know you.
but i dunno how to talk to you.
it takes two hands two clap,
i guess you just refuse to raise that hand.
its not my right to ask you to raise that pretty hand though.


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we used to be quite close, and we still are.
even so, my psychic link with you isnt as strong as it used to be.
we just see the world in different ways.
i dont really have much to say to you anymore,
but please dont think that i hate you.
if you need help,
i'll gladly step down and help you.

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my constant emo-ing must hurt you a lot.
i'm really sorry.

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i really didnt mean to look fierce.
its my natural born face.
please forgive me.
although i know you should have,
but even so,
i feel very bad.
offending one of my taizetsu no nakama.
i'm rly very sorry.

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i'm sick of myself.
i need to go out more.
anyone care to join me once sa1 is over?
we'll slack abit,
then we'll study to the point of genniusity.

call me if you wanna join me.

wds,

i spent 1 hr jumping around blogs trying to find a certain person's mistaken tag.
AHAHAHA

but i cant find it....

waste my time sia...

during exam period somemore.

lucky its a holiday and i can study x4 x5 x6

i've created an outburst of lamejokes.

lol, but i no mood to put them up.
i no mood to do anyth.

actually i just wanna....

i'm so happy!
she talked to me!!!


AHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA

i'm going to revise.
HAHAHA

-.- i shld stop acting like xiao hai zi.

everything's changing and shifting.

i'm not focusing.
i don't know whats wrong.

falling for another person is strange...
so strange..

don't worry, i wont say goodbye to you for good.
you mean a lot to me too, you know.
but i bet you know.

i'm afraid...
what will happen if i chase you?
i dont really know you yet...
if i wna go after you it will be so strange...
you'll think so badly of me...

lets not ruin a friendship with hate..


i'm very confused.
what to do?
how to help you, you seem so... so emo.
so sad.
so tired.
whats wrong? or do i already know whats wrong?
maybe...
nothing, i shouldnt say what i'm not sure of.
i shldnt say what can injure you.