shake hands.

i'm fucking pissed and stressed as well.

i'm going to be pushed away again by another.
its my fault, but then, what isnt?

you usually get back what you deserve, right?
no matter how much i try, the people who talk to me arent the ppl who i rly wna talk to.
person, i mean.
not that i'm ungrateful.
in that light, thanks to my family, celine, gwen, angie, sean, chua, how, hilmie, syazwan, etc.
i'm sorry everyone who was hurt by my words.
really.
i dont want to be grudged,
i hate people hating me.

but what i hate more is if you hate me and dont say a word to me, letting me do
more and more stupid, wrong stuff.
or stuff that people dont like.


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i just...
i just wanna get to know you.
but i dunno how to talk to you.
it takes two hands two clap,
i guess you just refuse to raise that hand.
its not my right to ask you to raise that pretty hand though.


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we used to be quite close, and we still are.
even so, my psychic link with you isnt as strong as it used to be.
we just see the world in different ways.
i dont really have much to say to you anymore,
but please dont think that i hate you.
if you need help,
i'll gladly step down and help you.

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my constant emo-ing must hurt you a lot.
i'm really sorry.

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i really didnt mean to look fierce.
its my natural born face.
please forgive me.
although i know you should have,
but even so,
i feel very bad.
offending one of my taizetsu no nakama.
i'm rly very sorry.

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i'm sick of myself.
i need to go out more.
anyone care to join me once sa1 is over?
we'll slack abit,
then we'll study to the point of genniusity.

call me if you wanna join me.