The lamest video in the world.

the final post before the long mugging session for 10+months

i will be back before next year.

please, do not spam my tb, i need to study in peace.(pieces actually)

goodluck to all noobs like me out there who need to study or die.

hey, i wonder how you are.
i kinda miss being able to talk to my friends, especially those precious to me.
i know, you probably wont see this, i know, there's so many things you're doing out there.
you're a great person. but flattering you isn't my kinda thing to do.
at this moment, i dont like anyone.
i've matured much faster now that i've gone through 4 sharp rejections in a row.
but i'll get used to it.
i need to find out, who is it that i want, and not to be together just for fun.

i want to see the world.
i want to be able to move freely, without any bonds holding me back,
but i realise that the only time i can do that is long gone.
next year, is the make or break year.
i have to chase the dream that i set up myself.
the dream, where nobody runs beside me, and i'm alone.
what is a group of friends but people who stand beside you for a mere moment?
i can't do much to them, or for them.
so i need to be strong on my own, so i can actually do stuff.
so i'm not helpless.
so i'm not useless.
so i won't see tears in 2010 on my friend's faces , or on my own.

i really want to see you.
i wish you were the one.
but i have to face it that its not you.
i knew it right from the start, when i saw you.

so then, how are you guys?

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one day, i'll write a story about the management.
to show each person's real personality at that time.
or at least the personality the showed me.
wait for it after next year.

i have succesfully failed again to stop reading manga-.-

i'll try again next time.

i found it!

i realise now why i bother to stay online all day.

its because i want to talk to you-.-
what a childish dream, that cant happen for now.

if i wanted everything to be back the way it was, then all my effort would be wasted.

everything happens for a reason, so i'll find out for myself why this happened soon enough.

anyway, after this i hope i can stop trying to stay online for hours.
it strains my eyes.

very sorry i cant give you the gift yet.

the wound has closed.

it doesnt hurt anymore.

but after you go to the doctor you have to pay the bill-.-

as requested by kavin^10, i will update.

update.

update.

update.

turn off and install updates?

-.-

actually i had something to type but i forgot-.-

wdh.

class chalet is over.
it feels so good to do something other than study with my class.
even though there are still somethings that i haven had the courage to do, i ended up chasing after people and injuring myself.-.- still an idiot

anyway, although it was boring i enjoyed myself. because i got to see so many things and do things i've never done before. so cool..

anyway, i managed to go out with a group of friends to some place far away from home.
walked all the way from the chalet(some funny place far away from singaporean housing estates-.-) until bedok. 30-40 mins walk at my normal speed.(2X faster than normal people) spent two hours total walking back and forth. (you still dare say i slow, try what i did. see who faster.bloody biker.)

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i didn't manage to talk normally to you.
i found out even if my body is falling apart, i end up chasing blindly after you.
are we still friends?
i guess i do treat my friends badly.
the problem is, i don't know how to show my friends that they are valueable to me.

... one day all this will be just a funny memory.

tsk. i can only write something when i'm full of emotions.

anyway, all cyber members have to be ready for cca open house-.-
if we're allowed to participate, that is.-.-

the darkness is passing.
but it isnt gone yet.